User blog:MysticalArceus/I'm Thinking About Leaving the Wiki(semi-vent???)

just a little warning before you continue here: there are a few major topics in this(including suicidal thoughts) Just a heads up for ya, if you don't feel confortable with that you are free to leave and browse the wiki more

Okayyyy uhh where do I start...

Ok well as you've read by the title I've been thinking about leaving the wiki and yeahhhhhhhhhhh yea this feeling has been here for a while and I don't know anymore..

I've just been having too much on my mind lately.. my mom is treating me like trash(I'll post my full vent below in the blog), and yea my family just won't leave me alone. I'm failing in school(aka what my mom says when I get a B+ on an assignment, smh). And I just can't focus on anything knowing that my mom will just hurt me more.. I've taken too much pain and I just want it to stop.

My classmates don't help me either... I've been called racial slurs and other crap like that for a few days and it's just been really messing with my head, plus the fact that my mom hopes I go to jail or even die, this is just giving me many suicidal thoughts and I just can't take it anymore..

And each day just got worse and worse, I'm failing my pre-algebra classes with C's and D's and I hate it so much, my parents just shame me(not just my grades, for other reasons I can't really speak of because I'd probably get blocked here for going into detail-). My parents just hate me and want me dead, that's all I'm getting from them here really.. I don't have a desire to live anymore if everyone I talk to is going to hate me sooner or later and I just hate it and I want it all to end.

and yayyyyy screenshot time(these are all from discord because there are people who actually try and help me with my situation dfgkhk).... *quietly sobs*